Talk
I want someone to talk to me.
I rant and rave, tweet and type
and make all the noises I can think to
in this world of ours.
I even say some words out loud.
But usually,
my only responder is silence.
I am tired of having conversations
with shrugged shoulders as my partner.
I wish that you would make some noises too.
At least then while we are lovemaking,
I will feel like it matters that I am there with you, a person.
Instead of just my shadow in the dark.
Or, at least in the afternoon,
you could say hello when I walk into the room,
or tell you something.
But there is no one to talk to me.
My words only sit across from silence still.
And so I will fill this table with my laptop screen,
and seek to douse this loneliness in the chatter
of a world out there having its own conversation.
I go online to have the world talk at me,
so that maybe all the buzz will help me feel okay.
I wish someone would talk to me.
you wish some to talk to you,
or to commune with you?
you hope for words,
or are you looking for connection,
understanding with depth?
I think… I think that I want recognition of my existence. Appreciation through interchange of words formed specifically to be said to me. So I think the “commune” and “connection” parts, definitely. I’m settling for a screen talking at me. I want someone real to talk *to* me, and to do it intentionally.
Good question.
Good luck.