Talk

21 Jan

isolation

Talk

I want someone to talk to me.

I rant and rave, tweet and type

and make all the noises I can think to

in this world of ours.

I even say some words out loud.

But usually,

my only responder is silence.

I am tired of having conversations

with shrugged shoulders as my partner.

I wish that you would make some noises too.

At least then while we are lovemaking,

I will feel like it matters that I am there with you, a person.

Instead of just my shadow in the dark.

Or, at least in the afternoon,

you could say hello when I walk into the room,

or tell you something.

But there is no one to talk to me.

My words only sit across from silence still.

And so I will fill this table with my laptop screen,

and seek to douse this loneliness in the chatter

of a world out there having its own conversation.

I go online to have the world talk at me,

so that maybe all the buzz will help me feel okay.

I wish someone would talk to me.

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3 Responses to “Talk”

  1. dtdeedge January 21, 2014 at 5:54 pm #

    you wish some to talk to you,
    or to commune with you?
    you hope for words,
    or are you looking for connection,
    understanding with depth?

    • miceala January 22, 2014 at 1:34 pm #

      I think… I think that I want recognition of my existence. Appreciation through interchange of words formed specifically to be said to me. So I think the “commune” and “connection” parts, definitely. I’m settling for a screen talking at me. I want someone real to talk *to* me, and to do it intentionally.

      Good question.

      • dtdeedge January 22, 2014 at 3:17 pm #

        Good luck.

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